What's My Story #2
Trust? Trust.
Life for our family these past several years has been high on the stress scale. I’ve run the gamut of emotions from feelings of drowning to comfort with the knowledge, or hope that God would come through in His great might and save the day. However, my ideas of Him saving the day have been in my husband landing an amazing job which didn’t require him to stand long periods of time.
That hasn’t happened—yet.
What has happened tho’ is an answer to prayer I used to speak in earnest when I first surrendered to God. That request was that He enables me to trust.
I needed this because I had learned throughout my childhood that there were few who could be trusted. Into my adulthood, people confirmed all I had learned. I didn’t trust easily.
Anyway, over the past couple of years the roller coaster of my life took a sharp turn and steep hill into the pit where despair and hopelessness like to live.
Through it all, I pressed myself to the altar, declaring, “God, only You can rescue me.” As those words flew from my lips to heaven, I knew they were true. Many times I could sense fear had come to whisper into my heart words of impending doom. Each time, if I called out to God, He sent me a word—usually in song or Scripture—that same day. One time in particular, I told Him, “Fear is staring me in the face. Please, Lord, I need Your encouragement.”
A song began to whisper in the back of my head and within an hour and a half I was standing in church during praise and worship when the worship leader played that very song. What was it called? “You alone can rescue.”
I can honestly say, though the climate around me is still raging, I am able to TRUST my Lord as the Only One who can lift us out of the appearance of financial, emotional, health, and relational ruins. And He has to some degree. And we have this promise:
“Being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.” (Philippians 1:6 NIV)
So, although the work isn’t completed—YET—we can TRUST that He will not leave the project undone.
It's been a pleasure to visit with you.
Trust can be difficult to feel when it hasn't been nurtured from the cradle. Praying we all continue to hold on to all that He's told us.
ReplyDeletePraying we can ALL learn to trust like that. Beautiful post.
ReplyDeleteLoved this post, Karlene! Trusting can be difficult, but I believe real faith is seen in the worst of our circumstances - when we are learning to rely on Him when it isn't easy or perfect or fun, and we don't maybe ever see the prayers answered just the way we want them answered. Knowing He cares makes all the difference.
ReplyDeleteYou're right, Sherri. I heard Louis Giglio say in one of his talks that the greatest megaphone of our heart is adversity.
ReplyDeleteThis trust is not some hyped-up emotion as I've heard some teach. It is the deep knowing that everything will be ok, because my Father sees and is taking care of business.